Elucidating Questions

This isn’t a poem so it won’t have a title. I’ve created a go fund me to try to raise money for a chair. I’ll link the go fund me here and copy the description over.

https://www.gofundme.com/f/briars-chair-fund/cl/o?utm_campaign=fp_sharesheet&utm_content=amp13_t1&utm_medium=customer&utm_source=copy_link&lang=en_US&ts=1755986932

Idk what all that extra crap on the link is

Here’s the description of why I’ve made a go fund me:

Hello, my name is Briar and I am a disabled person (fibromyalgia and myalgic encephalomyelitis and comorbidities) from Canada. Last end of March I had to move in with my dad due to losing my home, and the chair I used regularly was put into the garage due to being, according to my family, not worth working out how to bring inside.

The problem is, I have an illness that is POTS adjacent. That is, my heart rate is generally much higher, and when I’m upright it’s higher still. With my old chair I was sitting in a reclined position, my HR would hang around 75-90 BPM. In this chair I cannot recline comfortably, and my HR sits between 90-110 BPM.

This is affecting my health, badly. When I first got here I would be upstairs and up until my bedtime at around 11pm, slowly that became me going downstairs to lie down for the rest of the night at 9, then 8, then 7, then just after dinner, and now I’m feeling ill before dinner is even made and having to go downstairs around 3:30.

I have tried so hard not to be a person who can’t get out of bed. Every day I force myself up, regardless of how much pain I’m in. The chair I am using is also uncomfortable. I’m finding myself getting up every half hour because I ache so badly. This is sending my HR even higher as I’m standing. I don’t want to lose any more of my day, in fact, I’d like to go back to being up until at least 8pm because in living with my dad I’ve forged a new relationship with him and he’s getting older and I want to spend as much time with him upstairs as possible.

But I am on PWD benefits (this is persons with disabilities and it pays out about $1300 a month to me) and the chair is $700, it’s not feasible. The added amount is to help cover any possible tariffs as I’m unsure where it is going to come from, but in the event I don’t need it I would be just as happy to send the extra off to a charity.

Thank you for your time.

Anyways I’ll be back to my regularly scheduled bitching and moaning at some point but my domain is going to come down in about 3 days. So there’s that.