Elucidating Questions

Each light is a colour

A colour that no one else is

It’s like stars going out

And you grit your teeth when I ask

Why?

But I don’t understand why I

And maybe I’m not supposed to understand

Maybe she continued on in another place

Maybe not

Daughters without mothers

Mothers without daughters

Sons and fathers missing

Every they in between

It’s not always obvious when they’re shining

But when they go out

It’s suddenly a lot darker than it was

How do I protect people I will never meet?

A blue flame

Oh, my panic

What were we doing?

But it’s the same

Don’t leave me here

How can they know not to leave me here if they do not know me?

If they will never know me

Because they left before the chance came

To watch them go out

Such beautiful lights

Such a shame and a waste

A shame and a waste on this world

This pour Earth who has borne and birthed these lights only for the darkness to win

This poor Universe who spent billions of years creating the Earth to create them

To only lose them to the darkness of this world

May she rest

May she rest for a thousand years of gentle dreams before she returns in an instant to care in the shadows for those she left behind

As they all do

A tragedy

But we all know

We all know regret

It’s the same shade

Perhaps I shouldn’t blame the winds for the words that come at me

I am here

But they aren’t

Each one vastly more important than I will ever be

What is the door open for?

Why wouldn’t it open for me?

I’m pathetic, but you take these

Why do their lights go out?

Why do the songs they carried from the ages end with such a

Silence?

This bag of souls is getting heavy

Ripped and worn?

All my life

All around me

The good ones fall before the crooked kings

People with thousands of lives saved because of them

Even just someone’s best friend

If you’re reading this

Stay with me

Don’t leave me here