Elucidating Questions

I almost don’t know why I do it

Go into comments sections regarding trans people

But I look, I think hoping I’ll find just one person whose opinion that I shouldn’t exist was changed

Haven’t found it yet

A person changing their mind

Lots of infighting

It’s the same for every other minority

It’s the same for the genocide

No one changes their mind

Can humans actually change their minds?

It’s hard

Just seeing vitriol about your existence constantly

I feel very unwanted by this world

My being here doesn’t matter

And I’m struggling again so I don’t want to be here anyways

I suppose if I did manage to swallow my fears I’d be doing some people a favour

But I have this feeling like I need to take up space

I don’t want to though

I wanted to die in my sleep last night

One of those nights where you don’t want to wake up in the morning

But I did

I just want to enjoy myself

But I can’t

And my mum is okay with me selling feet pictures

If only I could get on a platform that I can do that from

Course you need money for most

Course I’d probably flop like everything else I’ve ever done

Incapable

I don’t want people, who haven’t done anything to deserve feeling like I do, to feel this way

I’m the worst person I know

But I don’t want others to feel like this

I feel like starving myself for fun

I’m supposed to feel this way but other people shouldn’t have to

It’s just how it is

For some reason my life is about not getting things I need and missing out on things I want

I really wish I could just disappear