Elucidating Questions

Always, until tomorrow

Just another day

How I didn’t cut my skin or smash my head while my landlord and his girlfriend laughed at my I crying because I’m losing my home

Assuming the worst of me so it’s funny that I’m heartbroken that my life of freedom is over

Because today when I cried the Sun came out and made a joke

He heard me crying from all the way downtown

The fucker

I say with a smile of supreme affection

In his way the way I’ll never be able to prove

Just a lyric just a coincidence

Billion billion

Keep doing nothing

Keep using my supreme apathy to put off knives and skin and heads and brick walls

I want to tear myself apart, physically, when I hear people laughing at me

Sail

And it starts to look… Fake?

Like people don’t actually do this right?

There’s some conspiracy to make me do it

Deep breath

Sigh

I wonder how far I’ll go?

Just keep going

I don’t know for what, or why

Thank you for being my protection but I wouldn’t need it if you hadn’t done it in the first place

Yeah?

How many souls have you tethered yours to?

You’re what happens when an angel dies

You’re the thing that wasn’t supposed to crumble

What is me?

There’d be no thunder

And frankly it would serve them right

I should fake my death just so my landlord has to deal with that

I have fewer days in this house now

Packing and putting things away, probably forever

To just sit in a garage

The life I’ve built in boxes

You see how easily breakable things are from here

Like how easily another human comes along and just fucks everything over

And the only thing I can think that I did wrong was trying to support his stupid girlfriend when she was freaking out about him cheating when he wasn’t and I told her he wasn’t

Go on and fuck yourselves.

Whatever

Whenever I try to do the right thing it fucking blows up in my face

Best intentions? Straight to hell

He who tries

Will be wasted

And all that

I feel like I knew this was going to happen too

All the signs and all that

We don’t live there anymore

We won’t

Around that time

I wonder if anyone can hear me

I really want to scream

Just go completely insane

Become a problem

I keep feeling like I can’t go any further and then I just keep going

Just until tomorrow

Tick tock

I have to envision my courage as the undying fire

Even if no one sees me fighting

Even if I’m a joke to them

I’ll live to spite you fucks

Hisss

We will though

This queer as fuck duet

Pas de deux

And yet we’re still standing

And no one has figured it out yet