Elucidating Questions

Guardedly we look out

But it’s daring us to look within

Both of us?

And I never know whether he’s a fragment or an invasive species

If anything like that could happen

As protective and fierce

Perhaps as fragile and lonely

I envy it

Seeing and feeling

Instead of it just being a moment lost

Always so explosive

Self preservation

And talking is dizzying

Like a coin just flipping

How do we both have everything

And yet pieces each the other doesn’t have?

If he remembers his moments he’s never told me

But locked from the comfort of memories

As if they’re not his

Aren’t they?

We

Not the same yet changing is obvious to only me

Let’s call it good acting

My inheritance from my father

From a thinking, feeling, being to one who only sees red

I know he feels guilt even when he denies it

As ashamed of his anger and I am mine

But mine becomes him

And he is just trying to keep me safe from everything

Is it darkness?

Or is it a defender of light?

We don’t know his name either

I suppose we’re not summoning the end of the world though

Just damaged

Imagine if you had a mission

Maybe you’d feel less chaotic

You’re the inside of me that’s screaming about reality

I can feel you leaking into conversation

I keep thinking you’re quiet

But I think we just are

Content to flip at the moment

My wish to meet you face to face

Do you even have a face?

Then again I don’t really know if I do

This flesh I don’t recognise

I suppose if I have to have a protector it may as well come from within

I just wish I could see and feel you and prove you’re real

Mind Spectre

No it is not a TV show name

It’s you, nameless thing

Did you come from the thing outside of me within me?

An intrusive thought come alive

If you were, would I dream of you?

Are you the nameless people who love me only in my head?