Elucidating Questions

You know they’re already thinking about it here

How they can get that done too

As if some lines on a piece of paper can dictate the gender of thousands of people

You will never legislate me into unexistence

You can write what you want and say what you want but it won’t change who I am

Your opinion on my identity

Is as important as a grain of sand to the Universe

We know it’s there

It’s hardly worth worrying about

You never said that as I discovered who I was the world would turn against me and anyone else like me

It’s concerning

I don’t want to deal with hateful people

When they pass on the street

They seem so kind

No, I suppose polite is the word

I have to remember that people don’t live by the same laws of emotion as I do

I imagine it a great effort because it would be for me

Treating others how I want to be treated

Has ended up with me being abused a lot in my life

Treating others how they deserve

Well, that doesn’t work very well

People don’t like being treated how they deserve

To exist in peace

I feel so much concern for trans siblings in the United States right now

Life is about to get even harder than it already was

If it wasn’t brave to be trans before it is now

How am I supposed to be worrying about everything happening there and everything happening in my life?

So stressed

So tired

What god would protect us now?

That wouldn’t say “well they voted for him”

They did

No one could be bothered to stop it

Nazis give Nazi salutes when they win

It’s what Nazis do

In a world that remembered WWII they would have stormed the stage and beat him

What are the poppies for then?

What exactly are you remembering?

I try so hard to not cause harm to others

Yet here we are

I thought they were like me

These people so unlike me

Feed the hungry

House the homeless

Pay the workers for their time.

My lifetime is worth more than $17 an hour

I can’t even comprehend the wages that come out of the States

I wish this all made sense to me

Because then maybe I could solve it

Instead I’m just confused

My knee jerk reaction is?

Just destroy them somehow

But that’s the animal talking

The one that doesn’t know what death and suffering are

The immediately more compassionate me

Wants to teach them

But the tired me who’s been trying to do that and failing for ten years

What do you do?

I’m scared for what happens here

I’m scared for how Canada always emulates everything the US does

It’s still a hate crime to kill me for being trans, but you never know when you’ll meet the wrong person

Be in the wrong place

It’s gross that everything is just normal

While billionaire oligarchs are making Nazi salutes in public

The disgusting ability for this society to just keep going

How many lives have to be lost before something happens?

I don’t know why the healthcare assassination didn’t spark something

They’re so complacent, someone could take their house from them and they’d still lick the system’s boots

Terrifying world

I wish to be a child again and oblivious

But I know I wasn’t

I was just worrying about different things

If prayers worked

Dear God

Please protect my friends and family, and their friends and family, and onwards into infinity

Amen

Would have covered it

Poor terrified kid me convinced I had to pray

Said that little prayer every night for years

We have to make things happen

Or they’ll make things happen

And they’ve been making things happen for millennia

With little to no sound from the people

Silence is compliance