Elucidating Questions

I am tired of sex

It’s everywhere

Assumed

It’s used to sell

It used to do everything

I really don’t care what anyone else does

I just get tired of it just being everywhere

About everything

It being such a huge part of human existence because they’re all obsessed with getting it and watching it at all times

Acting like all the people working in a hospital have an insane body count

I don’t really want to be involved

With any of it

Sex has been so incredibly negative in my life

And does it actually have to be everywhere?

Maybe I’d be less bored by it if it wasn’t just the same straight couple over and over again

Pretty girl and handsome guy

So tepid

And maybe if it wasn’t all based off of porn

Which is just unhealthy male fantasy in most aspects

I’m talking about commercialised porn

Women making weird noises

Men being powerful

It’s never healthy either

Usually some flaw or another

Maybe fantasy is just too real for me these days

Doesn’t it ever feel like it’s over done?

The sex.

Just several minutes of some sex

All the time

If it seemed anything like reality

It’s almost always amazing sex

Because all sex is amazing right?

Is it that great?

I just don’t see it

I’m now tired and agitated

Which means I’m struggling to form a thought

Does every good story need sex?

Does advertisement?

Does entertainment need it?

It’s funny to me that I wasn’t able to get sex, to be interested in it, until I was within two years of being too sick to have it

It just becomes water torture

And then those two years were just filled with desperation

And then regret

Maybe I can’t see the positives about sex because there’s never been anything positive about it in my life

But at the same time, seeing no positives for myself, it’s not like I want people to stop having sex or something

I’m just tired of it being everywhere

I don’t even want sexual themes to be removed from media

Themes is fine

And not all media

Just enough that I can watch something produced after 2010 that isn’t featuring several minutes of soft core porn

Like can I have something to watch please

I’ve spent my adult life watching stuff that makes me uncomfortable because I don’t have a right to exert my feelings as mattering

Now I’ve taken to watching safe anime

Just desperate for something new that isn’t heavily sexual

I just want something to watch

It’s either children’s shows, or shojo anime and I’d like something new

Balance

Moderation

Something