Elucidating Questions

My heart aches queerly

Fuck it

Like it ever had a chance

Like it’s missing something

Hope certainly fades away

I’ll sing

But it won’t bring me any closer to home

Is it for you or me?

Undone

Unwanted

The laughter the sirens

Jesus Christ

No I won’t

Safe with the rock

Like a hammering of the past

Wrapped up

Top 2% probably the only thing I’m in the top 2% of and it’s bitter

Because what does it mean?

Nothing

It’s over

It’s so over I just ache in moments and then put it back in place

I wish someone could hear me

Someone who doesn’t want to own me

That knows I am a wild thing

The Bunny and The Cat

What no one told you is bunnies are just scared, shy, cats

So I mean, aren’t we just a pair of cats?

Staring out into the night wondering what’s next?

Fixing our gaze on the thing in the distance that never gets closer

What is the thing I wonder?

Will we ever know?

If someone could hear us

I asked how could we possibly not be alone when we’re always alone?

Someone might be thinking of me

I don’t know until they make it known

Is there even a place for me here, among all of this?

This progress?

Tearing down the much loved bingo hall to build luxury condos

Because fuck the seniors and their activities right?

If we can fit more rich people there we should

I don’t know

It hurts

Being left behind

But it makes sense to note that I may have never been in front of the person who left me behind

Those mysteries he holds

I wonder how many secrets he’s carrying?

All those secrets

It’s okay

I don’t smile anymore and that’s okay

I make a face that resembles a smile without feeling it

It’s okay

It was supposed to be this way

It must be because that’s what happened

I don’t feel this song anymore

There was so much loss and I realised love songs weren’t about me

There’s another me wrapped up in this

It’s not me anymore

Because I never met anyone

Love songs are about other people

It’s a lesson I won’t soon forget

I hope

Am I even allowed?

Well it’s over

Honestly

I’m not the type to want to belong to someone

But they never want me

Can’t pick

If it happens it happens and it just so happens it’s not going to happen

So there are some words I guess

When war ends there are no winners

Only those left rebuilding what was left