Elucidating Questions

Is every meeting destined?

A resounding No from the Universe

What are they then?

That Happenstance thing?

How do you tell the difference between a destined meeting and a happenstanceical one?

Butchering English, that’s what we’re doing here

Nah, just playing with it how it was designed to be played with

Accidentally I’m sure

Was that destined?

Just then?

Was it not?

I rescued someone from having to buy new shoes for their kid

Oh look a murder of crows

Lewis?

Not for long

Counting down the days until I am who I say I am

I granted myself that wish and I am grateful

Expensive as it may have been

Was my wanting to change my name, destined?

What is destiny?

The home I want to return to, the friends I imagine, that I dream of

Are they even something I can go back to?

In my overdose dream

I was being constricted

Pressed in on from the outside

So different from the usual me spilling out of my body

Pressure from without

Then it was someone

Coaching me through awfulness

I remember almost giving up but I didn’t

I’ve spent years thinking over it

Was all of what has happened to me some plan?

I feel so out of control

So trapped

Getting by on chance meetings

If there was going to be destiny I’d have hoped mine was

Reaching the heights I wanted

With the people I wanted

I wish I knew what destiny is

What Happenstance is

I’m plagued by not knowing what my own future is