Elucidating Questions

Interesting that Facebook would make a Never Ending Story reference when I’ve been tortured by the concept of being nothing all day

My one great fear, born from a children’s movie

Nothing

Terrifying

What does nothing look like?

You say nothing but you’ve never seen nothing in your life

You’ve seen the absence of a thing

Never no actual thing

Atreyu dragging the horse through the mud

Both?

I’m both the horse and Atreyu or one or the other depending on the day

Insisting I can drag humanity through this somehow

Being dragged by the mysteries of the Universe

The brush of the wind on my cheek

The way a star shines

It’s interesting how that movie became a metaphor for my life without the hero

Just me

Alone in my castle

How I identified with that empress

Never knowing it was ironically probably because I’d be the one slowly disappearing

No hero

It’s reality afterall

There isn’t one

How do I wield my strength in ways that actually help me?

The clock is ticking

Am I about to be sent to some far off place to disappear faster?

I won’t have access to the services I need anymore

You wouldn’t have to drag me if it wasn’t so awful all the time

The world around me

My life

I crave stability

But it’s something I’ll find alone

I suppose

No one’s coming to my rescue