Elucidating Questions

It really feels like the sky is joining in when I cry

Every time I’ve come to the back door in tears it’s raining alongside me

It even eased off just now when I stopped crying

There are lots of reasons to cry

I was just crying because a person I follow on Instagram lost her soul cat last month and just announced she lost her dad on October 30th as well

Before that I was crying because a cat I follow has recovered from his illness to the point of bringing his mum stuffies again (which is his favourite thing to do)

Yup, the rain stopped as soon as my tears did

Peculiar

The sky took it personally when I said I didn’t have anyone to halve my tears with?

That moment of solidarity where the weather mirrors me

The opposite of those days the nice weather seemed to mock my pain

I’m massively uncomfortable right now, waiting until my dealer is up to bring me my weed

Being awake is hard

But I felt less alone when I opened the door and the sky was crying with me

It’s sad

To lose a parent is one of the most profound experiences a person can have

Because all at once that little person inside you who believed they’d always be there is proven wrong

I haven’t really experienced it yet

Besides people who claimed they were my parents and just disappeared like everyone else

“I love you like my own”

Your own should probably be careful then as your love is conditional

But the thought of losing my mum has weighed heavily on me

She’s sick, like me, but she’s had the disease for about 15 years longer, so it’s done worse to her body than mine, I’m sure

She had to get heart surgery because her heart was going too slowly

I cry for other people, a lot

I cry about my own pain, but usually I’m crying for others

I’ve been crying too much lately

Too many things going wrong

But, if the sky will cry with me

Maybe I won’t feel so alone