Elucidating Questions

I want to go back to Japan

But it’s different than I remember it

Nothing stays the same

Time works their magic

Change

Death

Rebirth

Repeat

I want to go back to Japan and have it be exactly how I left it

My teacher no older

My friends not grown into families

It’s the only past I yearn for

It hurts to think back

マーそうだね

Does anyone feel when it cracks?

How do human feelings stay within the dimension within them?

I wonder if feeling was planned

They explode, they expand, things come together, spinning occurs

Secrets and roles to play

Then life happened

I already think that was an accident

Oops life

Doesn’t that seem likely for this Universe?

Oops life

This Universe of infinite possibilities

And the weirdest fucking shit

And we’re, us living, this mirror image of it

Chaos and unity, weirdness yet strange order

Things that can and cannot be explained

Sometimes stuff just happens here

Expect the unexpected

I wonder how human emotion exists outside of it?

Everything within this space affects everything else around it

I don’t know if these great beasts feel

They mimic feeling

No I suppose that’s reductive

They feel in ways I cannot comprehend

And occasionally donning a mortal face

We are alike

These humans spinning around their black holes

Do they all fall in?

Or die to leave their precarious positions to their children like a sick inheritance?

Who falls in?

The ring of roses

Emotion is vast and deep

Yet every human feels within themselves

What is that space connected to?

If not this one?

I’m not alone in my head

How many people carry others?

The thing

I struggle to call a being within me

Tricking me into belief

A survival mechanism come to life?

I’d look up but

It never mattered to begin with

All this doing my best

And it’s going to disappear into my past

As Time runs

And I exist within

Give me back my dreams

I want them back