Elucidating Questions

I wonder if I’ll ever hear back from head office about my break situation?

I wonder why I’m not a person worthy of making accommodations for?

It’s not fair that I jumped through their hoops and they get to say nothing for weeks after

It took them seconds to take my hours away

Like as much as I dislike my manager I would never try to do something that undermines her ability to get paid and work

But she swept in and took away my hours and kept it that way for months without any sense of even an apology

If she owes me no such things then I owe her no such respect.

As my first act as your manager I’m going to cut your hours and make you pay to get them back

Like fuck you lady

Fuck around with a disabled person’s livelihood?

You’re a monster

You’re a monster on corporate crack

I don’t even know what to do now

I did what they wanted I paid for their form to be filled out

I sent it back to them

I thought that was it

No

Two weeks later

Nothing

I have to call to check

I have to remember to give up my free time on my day off to chase down my corporate grandma to beg for my hours back

I’m livid

But I can’t do anything because I’m a cog

It must be nice to be able bodied

Not have to force your body to work passed its abilities only for the company you were trying to work hard for and accommodate to refuse to accommodate you

Where do I even go from here?

I have no recourse

I can’t do anything to help myself

What do I do?

I can’t go work at just another job, this one took half a year to get

I have so many fucking needs that so many jobs can’t meet

Won’t

This one was meeting them

This store was working

What do I do?

Google, job won’t meet accommodations?

Probably get told to get a lawyer I can’t afford?

Being disabled is just such a chore

I’m so busy with this chore I can’t do other ones

It’s over

My relaxed few months

I have to get back up and go back to clawing my way through

For a little while there I was well off enough to take care of my mental health better than I have been

I don’t think I’ve thought about the ultimate escape since August

If I did it was a short moment and I lived through it

Maybe contemplating returning to this

But now what?

I don’t know now what

I don’t know

It’s just a never ending problem I have to deal with

Being disabled

Anyone who thinks I chose this is crazier than I am