Elucidating Questions

This issue with adult voice actors playing children

Because I’m listening to an adult voice

I’m like that voice sounds hot

Then they’re voice acting a kid

And I’m like no stop

Especially certain male voice actors

But also I’m very much attracted to the “boy voice” some female voice actors put on

Megumi Oogata being one

That’s a full grown adult voice

And I’m then watching the actual show, because it’s usual when they’re singing the OP that I’m like “that’s attractive”

And then I realise who the singer of the OP is voice acting and I’m like nooooo

Cartoons don’t really affect me like they did when I was a kid

I’m not like attracted to characters I wasn’t already into as a kid

Children characters are also children

So, yeah, it’s just awkward

It brings up philosophical questions like is a person who is playing a minor a minor in that moment?

Here’s the thing, American television started doing this disgusting thing where they have the adult actors of teenagers just going at it like bunnies on screen

Frankly it’s gross to me

Even knowing that the actors are adults

Because it’s like they hit that magical 18 and suddenly it’s okay to put them on video half naked, moaning, and gyrating

Does that apply to animation?

I definitely get that squicked gross

Awful feeling when I realise I’ve been attracted to a voice meant to portray a minor

There are some male voice actors I have heard in less than saintly anime

So similarly when they voice act children I’m like, no, you bad human

It’s hard to say because my type of attraction never really equates to sex

It’s just like that was the good kind of stimulating

You are the good kind of stimulating

Cartoons are difficult I think

When it’s young actors you’ve been viewing as children

But cartoons don’t age

So like there are characters who were teenagers when I was a teenager who I felt attraction towards, that now I see them and I’m terribly confused what I’m supposed to do

As I aged I wasn’t interested in people younger than me, but the characters in anime are always more mature than a regular teenager in many ways

That’s why I ended up idolizing them so much

That’s why I never recognised how old any of the characters were

They always felt older

And then I was older

And I still live those characters

Most of them

But I don’t know how to interact with them anymore so they’re in the past or a quiet couple days of nostalgia at home where I don’t have to come up against anyone for being as enthusiastic for them as I was

Growing up is difficult

That whole “grooming” and “sexual predator” thing people have been pushing about trans people

I’ve pretended it doesn’t bother me, but it really, really, bothers me

Because I was molested by my church best friend’s brother who was a Good Christian

And it makes me feel physically ill to think of doing anything like that to a child

So I find myself in mental battles with myself trying to determine if I’m somehow a predator because I find adult voices attractive

Because they’re being used to portray minors

I’m terrified that I’m just secretly exactly what they think I am

Never once in my life have I found a kid attractive beyond “oh I like you, and we’re in fourth grade and you have no interest in me okay bye”

But still I’ve got these fears now

That poor kid that grows up to become this

I still remember when my mum told me gay was a bad word

Still remember seeing people calling gay people what they’re calling trans people now

Yet I’m effected

Just to be perfectly clear these are not kid voices that actually sound like children

No 10 year old’s voice sounds like that unless he’s been smoking his entire life

And I’m certainly not interested in the character

Stupid women making deep voices being a thing for me

Constant inner turmoil

I scream at myself when there’s no one left to fight

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