Elucidating Questions

A tiny force of nature

Stronger than anyone would believe

Second in command with your one love Tanzy

Standing up when Tanzy passed away and was gone

Fighting

Hiding just how bad it was

Goodbye

Goodbye

A one of a kind girl

A coat I have never seen on any other guinea pig

When you first came to live with me you had a proximity alarm

I knew there was another piggy near you because you’d start going off

I will never know another piggy like you

Like Supi, Tiga, Tanzy, Onyx

I have learned how individuality truly works by watching you

Squabbles, but you were always family

My love

I already miss you

A world without you seems so wrong

So unfair

I’m not ready

It’s too late for me to not be ready

The Time has arrived

And I screamed at him with my whole soul

That this hurts

And immediately something happened to make me want to laugh and I damned him

How dare you make me laugh when it hurts?

Nothing is funny right now

It just want to be miserable

Can’t you allow me that? Time?

Happenstance?

Sometimes things just hurt and they aren’t going to get any better any time soon

The body count this year

Oh, I missed him for a moment

She was the best cuddler

My heart hurts

I feel anxious

Is home going to be the same place without her?

He told me it was time

No, Time

That is a capital T moment

And it felt like a thousand blades had pierced my chest

Because I knew it was true

I knew it was true when she went back for the ultrasound

That I would be losing her

I wanted to extend it

But we were in a end of life care situation and I couldn’t force her to exist because I couldn’t say goodbye to her before it got worse

And he’s always honest with me

I know he’s got them

All my babies

Gentle is the final hand

Cruel as Time may be

He is mercy

Sometimes the end is mercy

And I’m in pieces

But she’s not hurting anymore