Elucidating Questions

It’s so hard to tell whether the dreams are a blessing or a curse

The ones that warn when things are coming

You can warn me

Is the rain you crying with me?

The Sun tried to break through

But for a moment

Reminding me he’s there

I can always use a reminder

But warnings like this

And the worst part is the dreams that are just fears woven in

Never knowing what is premonitory

And I know I can hold her a hundred times in my mind

In my dreams

But it’ll never be the same again and I don’t know

I don’t know if I wanted to know that

I don’t know if I wanted to be shocked by it

Why are both options awful?

Why can’t I go to a place where such sad things don’t happen?

And I’m exhausted

Falling asleep while I’m writing this

You’ll come right?

To see me tonight?

I want you to go away forever

I don’t want you to leave

This being in my dreams

I have you held in my teeth

The teeth are the Cat

Because we’re always so angry

You took someone

So desperate to have someone

Even just a spirit of Death who hangs around

“Just”

Watch it insolent one

I’ll think of it as you

The rain

That you wept a million tears having to do what you do

Like I know you do for all

It is easier not to know

Those evils of truth

But you know me

Crack, break

Scream, kick, cry

Get up again

I’m just in the screaming and crying part

The complexities of our relationship transcend speech

I can’t explain how we communicate

My heart is a storm right now

But when it beats right

And it’s done beating for the world’s biggest distraction

And then the solar system’s

You know me

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