Elucidating Questions

I know Ruby can’t live forever

I know that like all the others before her she has to say goodbye some time

But can’t it be at home surrounded by her herd?

Quietly in her sleep?

I just want everything tomorrow to go right

Whatever right is

Even if I have to say goodbye to her

I just wish she could die happily at home

Guinea pigs have such awful genetics

Thanks to humans

Couldn’t breed them carefully, no, had to treat them like livestock

Yes

It’s a night for you to sneak up meakly

And I appreciate that you do

That you show that courtesy

You’re just the messenger

No?

Didn’t like that one

Well you’re something all kind of messengers

I know you don’t decide

But, as I’d like to cry and have reality shape itself around me

I’d like you to stay away

Yes I saw the dreams

I’m not ready

I know that’s what they all say

I know I said the same thing for every one before

I can do this?

This never-ending faith

Cosmic DJ

Death spirits

Both of you

You see these tears?

They’re not at bay right now

This is what I was talking about

The inevitably broken heart of loving an animal

Back in June, but still

Granted, I never see the end when I find the start of a new love

It haunts me, sure, but I accept it

And my heart is broken that my baby is suffering

Whatever it takes to make that stop

I have to swallow this pain

I understand that this is the natural order of things

It hurts like a bitch

Time’s cruelty

And I don’t understand

Why it’s the natural order

But you seem to know that at times like this

That my very human feelings of now and finality get in the way of respecting the calling back to the soil

Returning to our mother from where we came

It should be so easy to accept this as a new journey for her and wish her well

But I find myself clawing seconds together

Death is reality

Little me

But the pain is proof of love

The pain is proof you gave a piece of your heart to them

Let them take it with them

It’s how you’ll find eachother again