Elucidating Questions

Oh no

Oh no the bad number is coming up

Well

I’m sure it’ll be fine

It’s later anyways

Man this time I added a thousand poems

No, I swear, I’m doing fine

Seriously

Just fine

How am I feeling?

Like there’s a thousand things that I can’t do

And I can’t even seem to do the things I can do right

All over the place

I feel scattered

Yet tightly wound

And I got to see Arcturus before the clouds rolled in again

Because the weather can’t make up its damn mind

But the stars now

And Saturn

I’m feeling like everything is too much

Yet I’m feeling incredibly unfulfilled

I don’t remember my dreams last night

Yet I slept all morning

Without the memory

I haven’t done anything

You cleaned your house, you might say

But that’s just something you do, right?

Was it even an action if it’s expected?

I’m not where I planned to be

I never will be

It was nothing I wanted

What I caught with my net

It just feels like machine actions

I don’t really believe much of anything anymore

Maybe there wasn’t even an ever before

Is my defiance entertaining?

I should be worthy of the things I wanted

I will not bend from that

But I can’t do anything right, can I?

Never just right

I will never create perfection

Not from my imperfect self

But

それにしても

I’m worthy of something

Better than this, anyways

I’d venture to say almost all people are

Venture to say I’d take offense to knowing someone else was living like this

Where are the sirens I wonder?

I hear them still

As they come

Still send them speed

They happen so much more often these days

It’s a strange place to be

This fine, but forgotten, place

No one would notice if I wandered off into the night

No one would see me go

And no one would look for me

Which is of course why I have animals

Or I probably would have

In search of anything

Not that I’d have found it

Like I said I can’t do anything right

I don’t like Spotify changing the versions of my music

Okay here’s something they can’t change

Good old Digimon movie soundtrack

Yeah I’ll get through it

I always do

And so far, so far, never stopping

I don’t know where I’m going

And they keep saying it’s the journey that matters, but that sucks too

Oh right this one has an obscene tail

Silence

Emptiness

Wow this goes on for a while

I knew it would change as soon as I looked at it

This song is still about you

Because I do

And you do have the most unbelievable blue eyes I’ve ever seen

Silly thing

Me

But it’s not like turning it off

Erases the time

And I know it’s pointless

But I’m always sending good energy

Whatever that means

Like hoping for good things

Oh bass

I’ll stick around for Ravi then go to bed

It’s so late

Why do I always start conversations with server people at bedtime?

What just cracked?

A fun game of was that my ear breaking for a moment, or something?

This body

If you’re going to be my superhero you’re going to have to show up

That would be the requirements for that

Just dreams

Always just dreams