Elucidating Questions

I shouldn’t do things right now

I’m feeling high strung

All the feelings

This headache

I just want to go to a place where I’m not affected by anything

Why does the weather rule my health?

I was supposed to work today

I feel bad calling in, but it’s brutal right now

It blows my mind that I got an entire tattoo and it felt like nothing

And right now I’m in so much pain

And my ears are ringing

And I feel so vague

Like if I wasn’t solid I’d just dissipate into the air

I feel so trapped and stuck

I feel so useless and weak

My head feels full of mist

Fall is finally here and I have been bulldozed by the season changing

Yet again

God they should use me as the official season change announcer

I wish I had more in me

I don’t want to feel like this and call in sick and not get what little money I make

I feel so stuck

If I forget to do something

It’s only because my brain isn’t recording memory today

Yet another day to fade away

Alone is a terrible place to be right now

But if I admit I need help

Who am I going to call?

No one quite understands what a feat me surviving this far has been

But I feel like I’m losing

I feel like I’m losing this fight to just keep going

There’s no one to catch me if I can’t go on anymore

I’ll never know what it was like to be supported by someone

Not completely

Fight

I just have to

God I hate that I’m not well enough to do my job

Or anything but my job

I’m lost here

And the only one who’s going to find me is me

And I’m not strong enough to carry myself