Elucidating Questions

I wish I didn’t have to work tomorrow

This job is wearing on me

I lost all the people who seemed to enjoy my presence and now it’s just a place I go to collect an absolutely shit pay cheque

I thoroughly want to be rude to this store lead

Just dish back out some of this shit she’s put me through over the last months

I’m not a rude person though

And I don’t really want to be mean

I just want her to experience the same feelings I have about my job over the last few months

I want her corporate bootlicking self to have corporate just screw up her work schedule for months and demand she fill out paperwork that costs money

And then go

But we don’t want to

When said paperwork is filled out

All things an able bodied person will never have to deal with

Forcing people to do things they wouldn’t want to have to do themselves

And I just

I just hate customers

I hate people who are customers

There are people who come through my till and they are people and it’s fine

And then there are customers

I’m just going to casually do things that take up more time, be completely unprepared, and demand things of you and blame things on you

They’re just exhausting

And these days I can’t carry on a conversation and fold and scan at the same time.

I pretend I can

But I can’t

I shouldn’t be working

But I don’t have another option

Short of some government deciding to cough up about $2000 a month there’s nothing that’s going to fix it

I’m giving up my health to work

But if I don’t work I’ll pretty quickly have no health to give up.

Trapped dancing in this cage

Owned by whomever will take me

Paid pennies for every ten thousand the boss makes

It’s just gross

It’s all just gross

I have to work tomorrow

I just have to