Elucidating Questions

Just spent an hour

Dropped my piercing down the bathroom sink

Commence crying and trying to get it out

Ripped my fingers to shreds

Did not manage to put the sink back together properly

I guess I’m brushing my teeth in the kitchen sink from now on

Did get the piercing

Then trying to get it back in

Couldn’t do that

Put in the back up

Cursing and screaming and yelling at whomever caused today

What the fuck

I am shaking from the effort

I was dripping in sweat

I have no tools

God

That was awful

It’s so hard to live alone

I needed someone else so badly over the last hour

What was this supposed to prove?

I don’t think you have to prove to me that I need someone

I already fucking know you fucking worthless god damn something

I’m like

Trying not to Cat

It was so hard to reign in the absolutely beside themselves feline

Trying to keep myself calm and I have an indignant fury inside me

My hands hurt

My fingers hurt

I got my piercing back but didn’t get it back in

My sink is busted

And possibly something else because there was water everywhere

And I’m exhausted beyond expression

God it must be so hard to have someone who can help you

I don’t know who that was directed at

Tore my nails off because they were in the way

That kind of hurt too

Tore up my nose hole a bunch trying to get it in

Woe is fucking me

Woe

I wish I had someone to talk to right now

I’m feeling really low and defeated

And my fingers hurt

I wish

On Arcturus

That I didn’t have to go through any more reminders that I’m useless on my own