Elucidating Questions

Immediately

I forgot I had finished on this song

This song is still a little scary

Sometimes they feel like they’re being screamed at me

But the first one is the sign

The second is the message

At least that’s how it’s seemed

Yeah, I can see this

Mysteries

Quiet days

Even when I need them I hate them because of how many I’ve had

Am I selfish for feeling resentment?

That once a month check in

And I just laughed

I’m in the same place you left me doing the same thing you left me doing.

But I didn’t say that

Why bother checking in when you know the answer?

Still here, still starving for attention

I do want to sever

I do

Wish you’d disappear

But I can’t let go

I’m no one’s friend

Friendship rescinded

Not really

But I want to

I want to be angry but I can’t

Because everyone has more important things than me

Unimportant

Unimportant me

No, you see, the sad part is you didn’t try

No one does

No one does

Repeat repeating repeated

It’s impossible to shine alone

Why else are humans here but to see the light and recognise its owner?

ずっとずっと誰も見えずに照らして

寂しくないの？

But there must have been

An unspeakable number unseen

How lonely for them

I’d rather cultivate the stars

Be some great being that is mesmerised by them

That can’t help growing them

Am I?

Once you decide who you is

I’ll let you know my answer

Just let the sounds ring out and fall

It’s just pain

Would my companion join me again tonight?

I dread the day they don’t

Someone to talk to

I can’t even remember what we said

I’m over here collecting dream beings

It’s really the least my mind could do after almost 6 solid years of reoccurring dreams

Give me someone else to talk to

There’s a world in my head

That I wish would switch with this one

I wish I knew what name to say

For both of them

Friend being and Death being

It leaves me feeling lonely

Not that I wasn’t already

It’s a sadness I’ll never know the end of

Until someone takes a moment to see me

I don’t even know what that would take

What I’d have to be to see that

No one will accept me as imperfect

When I try to even accept the people who demand everything from me

I tripped on a dream

Maybe a nightmare

Treating others as you would want to be?

And a book

My brain’s version of the bible?

Who knows what my brain is doing

Tripping on dreams at bedtime

Trying to prove something to someone

There were lots of abandoned buildings last night

Who knows

I suppose I’ll go dive back into them now

The thing in my mind outside my mind

You can scream all you like

This is of your own making