Elucidating Questions

What a perfect title for this

You’re in my skin now

The process was amazing

It aches like the accomplishment of not cutting into my skin again

I did it

And it didn’t hurt like hurting does

Maybe it was easier to bear because it was real?

I don’t feel like anything could hurt worse than the pain my body puts me through

Endorphins

Adrenaline

I currently feel great

Exhaustion looms

I imagine I will be resting aggressively the rest of the day

It doesn’t quite feel real yet

I keep looking at it

I will probably expect it to fall off until it proves it doesn’t

So real

Pain that actually has a source

And I can look at it and know what’s causing it

I don’t know exactly how to put into words the experience

The artist is amazing

I was right to pick her

Handydart has really opened up the world to me

The bus driver

I remember her asking, “you’re going alone?”

First tattoo

Honestly the artist herself filled the void of companion and I will never forget that

I love it

And I did it by myself

How many people wouldn’t have tattoos if it weren’t for being with friends?

Not a crazy number, sure

But probably significant

Your absence was felt, yes

Strange question asker

Anyone’s was

I did this for me, though

It would have been nice to have a person to hold on to after

Sure, always

But I used to not go places because no one would come with me

Look at me now

I need someone, but I don’t need anyone

Independent

For a bit anyways

Dreading the next tragedy

But I’m here and that means something

I did this and that means something

Everything feels so right, right now.