Elucidating Questions

Somewhere on Earth today

Someone feel in love with someone

That must be nice for them

The falling

Stupidly it beats

What are you planning to do?

Storm the castle?

Of course I’m looking up at the sky

No stars tonight though

To light the way

I’m not alone if I’m dripping in spirits

How they call

Like I’m supposed to be doing something

When I already tried everything

More than twice

Why do I want to be recognised by someone like that?

Into the night

So easy to imagine being wanted

And yet

And yet here I am

Pulsing into the night

I wish I knew who was in the dark

Just outside my consciousness

If I call

Is someone somewhere spurned to find me?

Or are we all wandering randomly

Tugging the thread

It’s attached right?

Doesn’t just disappear into the darkness like everything else?

Outside me

And yet I’m so much more than this body that holds me

Maybe it’s just neurology

It is half pain

Because in the end there wasn’t really a choice

Wandering aimlessly

There’s a you right?

If there isn’t

Why does my soul cry out for you?

Like the light of the dawn

But not even a hint

Patterns and patterns

And I patterned my way into a one sided nightmare

And even if I seek forgiveness

It’s already too late

And in the end

Isn’t it better that I’m nothing?

Isn’t it?

Wasn’t it supposed to happen like this?

Some grand plan

My eyes are burning with the souls of tears of anger

Not falling

Just imagining they’re there

It’s not something I can fight

Reality I can fight

Truth I cannot

A seal of truth

Walking

In the end it’s no different

I’m just without my candle in the dark

If someone would light it

Can I will my dream companion into reality?

They’re very nice

I still can’t remember their face

Or their name

Or if they even have a name

If I could fly

Like in my dreams

I’d go anywhere else for a bit

If I could blink and be in Japan

I wish I could go live with the old man and the old lady for a while

Doesn’t anyone outside me feel me?

Maybe I’m just refracting light

A colourful light stopper

No home

I thought home was within reach

If I just closed my grip around it

But when I opened my hand it was empty

Questions of life

And what its purpose is

I lost track of the Moon

I wish to anchor myself

I’m just floating here

I’ll float away

I’ll disappear

Dissipate into the atmosphere

I want to jump as far away from here as I can

Find some other world to wander

Maybe I am ending the world

Maybe I’ll go end some other one

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Maybe that’s why I’m always summoning Death in my dreams

Though

It’s strange

I don’t remember him there now that the random companion is there

These dreams

All I’ve got to hold on to

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