Elucidating Questions

There was someone with me last night

Someone

Throughout the dream

I can’t remember if they had a name

I don’t remember their face

Was it you? Strange spirit.

I was calmer

I didn’t feel that anxiety as I walked around the pet store

I feel like I suddenly remembered needing a cane and they let me take their arm instead

And then the moment of reality breaking through was over and I continued

And I want to say he

But we never used pronouns and my brain is my brain

Who knows

As fleeting as a butterfly

They were there

And now they’re gone

No summoning

No one died

Somehow there

Who could it have been?

I don’t even recall

The part where I’m trapped with my ex

How strange

Why is it that in my dreams I have these people?

My mind making up friends?

Supi was there

They’re just whispers now

They were as vivid as day when I was experiencing them

I wish I knew who it was

I wish it wasn’t just a dream

I want a companion

I am complaining

A relationship I barely remember

A ghost during the day

I know my mind can’t make actual people appear

But it feels cruel

To only have true relationships in my dreams

Is that not pitiful?

Am I too hideous in the light?

Who knows

Me in my dreams is strong, steadfast, brave

I mean, goes to space

That old myth that if you die in your dreams you die in real life?

Apparently dream me is not concerned

Something about dreaming gives me power

But only within the dreams

Plagued

I’m plagued by repeating stories

Like my mind ran out of them

Bitch you dreamt up an entire novel and this is what you’re giving me?

Now they’re just mysteries

Dream interpretation never sounds right

I wish I knew what my mind was trying to tell me

I wish dreaming could make it so I find these people in the daylight