Elucidating Questions

The night can’t swallow me tonight

The darkness may press in

But I put my name down

And can see things changing

So long I was trapped by every little thing getting in the way

And I’ve clawed my way into existing

Swimming against the stream of bureaucracy

Trying to stop me from surviving

Let alone thriving

Disability in this world is set up so that you never stop having to prove you’re disabled

Everything you need

You have to prove it

All because we can’t produce what we need ourselves

Whatever that may be

And I never know why

Because anyone who would willingly submit to this

As a fake

Would have to be so desperate

You might as well give it to them anyways!

This lack of care just in case someone might abuse it

Oh, I want to stay here

But I don’t belong here anymore

Ah well

Keep going on

And I am standing alone

If only they’d forgive my sins

I’m accomplishing something

Despite everything trying to stop me

And this world that couldn’t care less

It’s so easy to say don’t be afraid

When the world is small in darkness

But I do have a power

It’s strange

And I can’t explain it to anyone

Ever

The flame reignites

Somehow

How I want to teach it

I’m being told the night is opening

Can I fight it off for a moment longer?

I’m not ready to follow you home yet

Oh repeating dreams

Oh it’s time for you is it?

You are a wise guy

Oh now the exhaustion has hit me

As it does

Today is not a day to forget

The first day I saw my name on mail

It was real