Elucidating Questions

You’d think I did something today

I’m so tired

Will I wake tomorrow the same?

Free of the night’s clutches

Yet still in the dark

The Sun can shine

And be the light that guides me

I’m still in darkness

I don’t know if I want the Sun to set or if I want it to rise

In the day I can pretend

Something could happen today

But once the darkness sets in again

It’s obvious it’s just the same old day again

The same old revolution

Thousands of miles from where we started

I’m still in the exact same place

I want to strike it

The darkness

Bite

Punch

Kick it

But it’s not an entity

Merely a promise

From me you will go, but to me you will always return

And I thought there would be a trick

That love was an answer to a missing piece so jagged

And the pain does run

Through my veins

My eyes weeping as if I’m always crying just a bit

Can’t I stop it from overflowing?

My soul which demands answers?

Demands to know why this is as it is

I can’t see the stars

Not mistaken

Gazing at the sky

I can’t get out

Of this life

Of the body

The pain may as well be my soul screaming to get out

Lock me in this mortal shell

Maybe that makes me powerless

But the words pour

My fight

Restless and angry underneath

Is this to settle it?

Crazy

Of course I’m crazy

Even the mad scientist has one guy

Who have I got?

Who wouldn’t cower away if they saw me?

Oh nevermind

Indeed

Maybe it is too late for thinking

Send me a lullaby then

Writing for no reason

That’s the opposite

I’m just an 悪霊

The disappearing blue flame

Well now I can’t take that sentence seriously anymore

Did you see that cool trick?

I hurt myself and laughed at the same time

Of course you didn’t

You didn’t see what my phone just did

You meddling spirits

You’re all I have

But you have no tact

Yes too soon

Another day is gone

This is such a long and lonely path