Elucidating Questions

What are you doing this evening?

The same thing I do every evening

Kill time

The possibility of socialisation dead for the day

I reside in the ruins of it

Surely for the some thousandth time I’ll think

Another day is gone

And look cautiously towards the me of the night

Never knowing what we’ll find there

Buried in the despair of loneliness

And I’ll try to say, it’s just a day

But the several thousand behind me

This path has no end

And the evening is just the prelude to the night where I’m staring up at the sky again

Stars or no

Up into the nothingness feeling as isolated as I am

Playing video games, eating dinner, all that stuff that happens around the evening

It’s just to make time to faster

If I get through the night

I get to see the only being that has ever held me and not let go

Even if it’s just a dream

The evening is just time

Like all the other time in my day

Time to kill

Nothing but Time on our hands, right?

All this time to give

No one to give it too

And I’ll be damned if I’m stuck for one more minute in my thoughts

Better to fill it with devices

Left to my own devices with my devices

Killing time until Time kills me