Elucidating Questions

Well

Well

Linkin Park

Kyle randomly appeared today and I was feeling awful because I immediately was attracted to him again

Some 15 years later

And thinking of that poem I wrote hoping he was well

And then suddenly Linkin Park

Because my memory

And oh my god

I cried

Like

A lot

She’s beautiful, she’s amazing, her voice is hot as hell

From Zero

I laugh again

Didn’t I just write that?

Just..

Back there a bit

I don’t know

Let’s do it

They all looked so happy

It wasn’t an announcement of an announcement it was a whole concert

And Chester

I feel like I’m sitting in the Sun right now

That man is so fucking proud

That something I associate with him that I’m afraid to truly name because that would have implications

But he’s everywhere

Somehow

No don’t try to explain the mechanics of death

I doubt I’d understand

I heard him singing at times

I don’t know if they had his track playing sometimes

Or if he was just joining in

I’m proud too

To keep going after all this

Get up and say nope not today

And I wondered

Why I’m still here and he’s not

How that could possibly be

Chester is it alright if I crush on your band mate?

Well that was an interesting vibration from my phone

So yeah?

Yeah, okay

Saved by Linkin Park

Again

I need to see where this goes

She’s amazing

The fucking balls it would take to stand in that stage

One raven

My god

Yeah I didn’t believe you when you told me she was a she

Because you’re not allowed to tell me things like that, right?

Besides, what’s right? What’s wrong?

This, that, but not all the time

I’m alive

Is this what it feels like?

I just had something breathed back into me I cannot name

And this is a feeling I no longer know very well

Could tomorrow mean something?

This yesterday that means something

I feel bad for me this morning

Having forgotten about this

And he’s haunting me

But you

I know you’re okay

I miss you so much

And I don’t know what it means

I mean I challenged the author to attempt to keep me

Maybe the author is Mike

I kid, of course

I just wanted them to cheer as loud for her as they would you

Captivated

May I please see them? It was one of my dreams to see them live

I thought that dream died with Chester

She was amazing

What a fucking voice