Elucidating Questions

Facebook keeps suggesting co workers from my past

Who I’ve never searched for

Who aren’t in my phone

And I feel like I’m creeping on them

Oh look a person I knew once still living their life

I tried reaching out

It doesn’t work

I’m yet again the only one interested

No one’s interested in me

And I know I’m not interesting

The Wolf said as much

I only date interesting people with personalities

I know that if I was one of the good picks I’d be taken

Some people are just destined for solitude in this world

I’m not interested in what didn’t happen

Because no one ever saw me

Though I guess it would be worse if people saw me and didn’t like that

Exclusive

Will there ever be anyone worth trusting with myself?

I don’t want to do my best anymore

I want to be as lazy as fuck and just give up and let the world swallow me

But I won’t and I hear the gentle laughter of the chorus as I get back up again

Is it disbelief or is it as funny as I think it is?

I’m that one song

It’s a vodka drink right now

The Sun is dying the tiny tufts of cloud pink

Torturing me with the past

Teasing me with strangers

Look at all these relationships you thought were real

I don’t have to worry about what I’m going to do

I have 7 years of training

But how are you going to convince me there’s something to continue for now?

I recieved the transmission

When does my luck run out?