Elucidating Questions

I was just humming this song

Reality is cruel

But even if I close my eyes there won’t be you there smiling

I used to sing this song with my heart and soul

Whose smile was I expecting to be there?

The thump of a psychic moment

That only I can feel

We’re creatures that go on forgetting

This song used to make me feel peaceful

Now I don’t know why I was singing it

So many empty love songs

So many empty feelings

On the day we reach eternal sleep

Will anyone have even been there?

Never meeting

Never knowing

We didn’t reach the end

Endless solitude

And it’s just another day gone right?

Some several thousand now

Back to a different hiding place

All the princes got married and lived happily ever after

That must be nice

I don’t know what I wish for now

Everything is mine

Except nothing is mine

And I sit on my tiny hoard of things

It’s all mine

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I thought I was about to meet my destined people

Reality is terrifying

That none of it was true

Minds are terrifying

My own mind did this to me

And him

I’ll never know what to trust again

Myself?

Myself got me this

I am no more anything than I was when the first one dropped to the floor

If not him

If not for him

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But my truth was only one thing

I can feel the words dripping from my lips even as I refuse to write them

Love is pain

Love is unfortunate

I’m drowning in my doubt?

What else did you expect?

I can’t say anyone belongs with me

I can’t say anyone would want to

You showed me it

It wasn’t even close to whole

I wanted you to end it for me

And yet I didn’t

Hold on to nothing and keep going

I guess I can cry

It’s fine if I cry, just right now, right?

Yeah, let’s go bother the wolf I’m sure that’s a good idea

He’s probably married too

Everyone gets married, and leaves

There isn’t a reason for a future like mine

I’d rather write love letters about dreams that aren’t real either

Dear night being

I guess it’s just you and me now