Elucidating Questions

Oh

That did it

It’s over, huh?

Didn’t even start

Wasn’t even a contender

I’m truly alone here

That last dying hope just bit it

Not even a whisper

Just a breeze

Without that

Who am I, I wonder?

All this time I’ve been defined by his silence

And all this time I was more invisible than I thought

Hoped

Damn hope

くだらない

All this affection for no reason

Wasted emotions

Wasted passion

He probably has been laughing at me all this time

I’m probably an inside joke

Remember that loser?

You were never a zero

You were loved

You have no idea what it’s like to be

Unknown

Invisible

Nothing

幸せでね？

I guess I’m keeping Astoria

I wish I could cry

But right now all I’ve discovered is that my heart was broken all along

And it was pretending not to be

And it doesn’t believe there’s anything else

We’ve entered a quiet place of contemplated despair

I would have settled for anything

And as a replacement you sent me a murderer

And you’ve been toying with me

Leading me on to keep believing

When it was over from the start line

I don’t believe I have anything to say to anyone right now

Be silent

Leave me to my 絶望

Leave me to my devices