Elucidating Questions

So terrifyingly free

Nothing to hold me down

I can go sailing through the stars

Out of the milky way

Out into forever

イヤ

Maybe I’m trapped in the gravity of the Sun now

I almost hope so

Or I’ll jump right out of this reality

What does a terrifyingly free person do?

I guess very much what I have been doing

Without a safe harbour

I am nameless

Lost

The compass never mattered

With or without it there’s no way

Will the dreams continue to taunt me, I wonder?

All of this being me

It’s too much to handle

Being entirely alone

I guess you don’t survive then

Just another rich child

I never got to have a musical background

I started from nothing and became nothing

7 years

I want to cut into my skin

All this pain should be physical

I want to fade away like a raindrop in the ocean

何の為？

エルメスの音海の歌

They could be trying to tell me something but instead I’m just out of breath

I can’t cry

And yet that’s all I’ve done

Time to forget

At least I know he’s safe

Even though I don’t know why I care

He’s just another rich kid

そうだね

I already knew I was foolish

I knew that

I need you to come rescue me

I don’t know what song I need and you do

I’m never going to remember this life

It’s not worth it

Can’t the Sun just set so I can see that stars and this day can be over?

One more day

Today was the day I learned what wasting 7 years feels like

It was all just a lie

And isn’t it better that way?