Elucidating Questions

生きるって疲れた事？

All I feel is weighted

I wish I could just sleep

I’m in so much pain

Physically

After the pain attack in my leg last night I finally fell asleep

Only to wake up with a leg aching from use I didn’t ask for

And what doesn’t hurt?

Imagine not being in pain

This is not pain you will away

Any number of people would be in tears right now

I so rarely cry from pain

I can’t remember the last time I cried from something hurting physically

They think I’m weak because I feel pain

I would like to invite anyone to trade with me for a day

Just a day

Would I be content if I wasn’t always hurting?

Why does my toe hurt now?

Sharp, stabbing, pain to the toe

I assume I was bored

And so I made it hurt

That’s the other one, not that we’re making it up, or weak,

Just that we somehow want to be in this pain

I couldn’t tell you what’s worse

I never got the chance to give my soul up for a career where I worked every free second

It’s worse than working retail

Because I still have to work retail just less

But all this pain

I wish there was a reason for it

My body just hurts

I wish I didn’t have to feel pain and also be alone

I could probably handle it if I had someone to talk to

Alone and in agony

It’s so loud

Louder than that chirping bird

痛みを止めって

Every movement

Is pain coming alive

And me dying a little more inside