Elucidating Questions

Yeah, that’s me, carrying on the family tradition of queerness that’s nowhere in my family

Something left over from a previous method of communication?

Something left in me that escapes societal bounds?

Of course

I’m very rarely sexual these days

It takes a very specific something

That awful, wonderful, wiggle that Rin was doing

And then I immediately reject it for whatever reason

It’s not worth the energy

But I would happily fit into a relationship as a cuddling creature

If you need it you can find it elsewhere, doesn’t affect me I’m not using it

Remember how he rejected that?

The wolf

Coaxed out of me a sexuality that didn’t exist

He was so determined that sex was a relationship requirement

I was so determined to get him

I suppose that means it’s just waiting for the right moment?

Somewhere deep inside me desire exists

If you walk into my life will it ignite again?

You

Could be you plural

The original you

But that would require me believing that there is more than one person for me

And, eh

It’s hard enough to believe there could even be one

All I want is someone who loves me and isn’t going to kill me

Yet that seems too difficult to accomplish

Is you and me

Me and me?

It’s just you and me now

Something

Someone other than me

I want it to be me and someone else

I could swear it should be me and someone else

Wouldn’t it be great though?

If one of us was finally happy?

It never occurred to me that I wouldn’t even be

Be real to him

Couldn’t I just feel happiness for his happiness and

I am a selfish person

Wanting it for myself

I should be content with watching it unfold

Except they won’t even tell us what it’s like

Maybe I would be fine watching

Seeing happiness

He looked so tired that time

If you could make me a promise

That he would see mostly good days

And that she would love him however he needs, whenever?

Maybe I could be content

One love

そうだね

Their perfect love story

There’s warmth here

I should be content to view it

Am I ever going to be?

良いなー

I want to experience it too

If I didn’t have this corrupted love

Uncertain heart

Purify the ✗

Good, right?

I wish I wasn’t selfish

I’m sorry I’m selfish

If I disappeared would anyone cry

Before they wanted something from me?

It’s wrong that everything just continues

It should shatter with me

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苦しみのビーコン

Rusty voice

Does it take much running and hiding from a love that doesn’t exist?

I chose you

Wrong

Sick of meaningless love

Someone show me something real?