Elucidating Questions

I don’t know if I’m ready for there to be a new vocalist

I don’t know if I’m ready to hear that sound again

With the obvious absence

But it was your baby

And I think they’re right to do this

Isn’t it funny how I just said I missed Linkin Park

And they posted that something countdown?

That then started counting up

I almost expect you to pop out and be like nah I’m fine

Never quite got to the acceptance part of your exit

But the world needs that sound

Somewhere to scream from

It’ll never be the same again

You wrecked it

And there is absolutely a part of me

That is still so angry with you for doing so

You didn’t just crumple up the paper

You tore it to shreds with one

Tremendous

Choice

I always go back to what were they thinking

You, her, my sister

But it doesn’t ever answer the question

Fill the void of hurt left behind

I’m probably going to cry

If I had not received this leg up

That timer would have dragged me farther

Ever the carrots

Never to eat, only to see

A new Linkin Park album

I mean, I wanted it

It’s there, I wrote it, I miss Linkin Park

I could just frame it as you… Retired

You’re only a fraction of the whole that is the band

You’re only a fraction of the whole that loves the band, owns the band, wants to see it live on forever

It’s just the most awful way for it to happen

But that was your choice

It’s so hard to know whether a choice made by a mind plagued by thoughts was actually a choice

Led down the darkest path by monsters that normal people can’t even imagine

You thought the monster was you

As do I

I think the monster is me in those moments

You said it yourself

Everything was too heavy

I just wish you’d seen the sign to stay

I wish every person fighting with these demons had the same something

To drag myself on

I’d give it away

I miss you

I miss knowing we’re on the same planet

Currently the band is toying with us

If you were part of it, it would feel very normal

But because you are not

All I can feel is dread that when the words start

It’ll be the same, some people taking on the role of feeling something

Does anyone feel their music anymore?

Is it all just a part they play?