Elucidating Questions

People endlessly tell me how stupid I am and then I assume everyone knows what I know because I’m so stupid and then people attack me as if I’m showing off

I don’t understand

What do you want from me?

I try so hard to just exist

It’s endless

It’s endless

I just want it to stop

What a stupid reason to cry

So I’m stupid right?

So why doesn’t everyone know what I know?

Frustrating

Maddening

Humanity is going to drive me insane

Must conform exactly to how they want me to be or else they’ll attack me

I’m stupid

I can’t figure out what they want from me

How did a lighthearted comment get all this?

Like I’m happy for her.

People tell me I’m illiterate

But I apparently know too many words?

People tell me all these things they see about me

Repeatedly

But then I’m apparently showing off?

If I’m so stupid why does everyone get pissed off at me for “being better” when I’m not?

This is my socialisation for the day

So far I’m a dip shit who shows off and tries to seem superior

I just want to connect with someone

Why are they like this?

Why can’t you swallow my loneliness?

I attract people who hurt me

I tried to find someone who wouldn’t

It’s been 7 years almost

The isolation started in November 2017

One year of abuse

I don’t have any armour left

You destroyed it when you made me meet with my father

Do you want the grey?

I can’t maintain contentment when this is happening

I’m stupid

Why does everything I say blow up in my face