Elucidating Questions

It continues as usual.

My first interaction of the day being told to get a grip

Now I’m a dip shit

I told you I can’t handle this shit

Do I talk like this to people?

Do I actually deserve this?

Did I not give out enough discount-

She flew right up to me

Incoming hummingbird

Did she sense me suffering?

Why do people act as if someone being wrong is a moral failure?

I’m sorry being wrong makes me a bad person

I want to start today over

This just plunged me back into the pain of isolation

That this is all I’ll get today

Like there isn’t some thousand love letters among my stupidity

Like this is my punishment for treading near the feet of a god

It always feels like he has a hand in it

Even though he doesn’t

Maybe he did curse me

He probably did

It’s not fair that this is it

It’s not fair