Elucidating Questions

Cosmic DJ never let me go

But instead of bringing these words

And those words

Bring me words I can sing

Immediately they comply

Thanks a bunch

Opening the door of dreams

Dream’s door?

I wish I could know why we haven’t met

What’s keeping me from you

If I could just sing

People would understand me if I could just sing

These words things, I’m so bad at them

So bad at aligning them in such a way that works

What I want to say is not containable in so many characters and syllables

And the rain falls

What does everything mean?

Things just happen too…

My life is too well written

Thrashing and screaming, dragging myself along

Ask for help a few times

Suddenly money happens

It’s too well written to be random

Too well thought out

But it’s also pointedly missing something huge

Companionship

In any form

I miss Supi

She was my little piggy soul mate

A bond unquestionable

It’s gone from my life

It’s really raining now

Late Summer downpour

It’s just so ビミョウ

Well that word won’t translate, but whatever

Without someone to share with

I’m now fine, financially, for a while

But I’m still alone

Eight days

I’ll probably shatter again

You have no power over me

I say and then am blown apart by a single verse

The internet is a bad place for me

Nice, immediately agree

I could make it a vacation but I feel so nervous traveling

Solo disabled person who can’t defend themselves travels around Vancouver late at night, no vehicle

Yah, okay

It would be nice if I could become famous so my actual one love could find me

Become known so I can help them find me

It can’t be my destiny to be alone

It can’t be because the Universe wouldn’t do that to me

I’m not a bad person

Bored and irrational, yes

I invite any other person to just go years without seeing anyone of importance for more than five minutes

I apparently get stuck to every innuendo too

I’m so damn lonely

He’s back again

Oh holy fuck

It’s the exact song I was just borrowing from

These strange things

Ey, oh, where’d the rock and roll go?

God

All I need to understand is that I will be alright?

Because a billion strangely convenient coincidences besides the one I need?

It’s not fair that love is so easy for me, but I rarely see it returned

I’m not good at love, there being a yin and a yang to me

I want to try though