Elucidating Questions

Why don’t you have a panic attack at the bank?

Just as a little treat?

Was I both of them at once?

All of us

Exhausted and drawn thin

Cheques suck now, eh?

Do you know that?

It would have been nice to lean on someone today

There’s no one to lean on

I’m still afraid it’s a fake

He’s making it up

He’s not really the type to do that right?

Fear

Anxiety

And it’s okay if you don’t care

I’m going to keep doing as I do

Breathe, me

Time is funny

Time surely has moved on

Yet am I still that scared kid?

Mysterious

I’m 17 again and trying to impress him to keep him off of subjects he might not receive well

What a long day

I need someone

I know you’ve got it in your mind that I’ve been just fine up until now and I’ll keep being fine

But I’m not

Release me from this isolation

But please stop people from openly staring at me it’s rude and I can’t handle it right now

I’m okay

But I’m not

Like I’m going to keep telling myself that I’m okay as some stressed out mantra because I am definitely not okay

Sound good?

I can’t handle anything right now

Trying to convince myself to relax

Just do it

I need a hug that isn’t from him

Someone

Someone please

Someone bring back my desperate despair

I’m okay

I’m just going to lie until it’s true

Everything is okay

Me included

It’s true damn it