Elucidating Questions

Yet you pull

If I could take that step

From zero

Zero から一

But I’ve taken so many steps and none have taken me that far

And time flows on

The city changes around me

And I am trapped in this place

No matter how many steps away from it I get

I just come back

How I want to leave this place

Ugh

Humanity

That is, being human

I want to shed it

My human skin

Become something else

I’m sure he’d like to blame it on him

I know well enough my own blame

They’re not bad dreams while I’m having them

It’s not the same as before

He lashes out for reasons I don’t know

Jealous

Self righteous

I don’t know, is it self righteous if he’s righteous about me who we’ve figured out is not him?

Jealousy is truly ugly

I could go back to not wanting anything

Then I’d have nothing to be jealous over

Then he’d want things though

Things I don’t

That’s why there’s both

Where we spotted the fissure

Each one of these is another bid for change

3200 bids for change

Oh gross here’s the melody to try to make me go back to thinking about someone who doesn’t even deserve it

I’m broken

You finally broke me

Dragging my ass through life doesn’t make me any less broken

I’m nothing but a living dead person

Even Death doesn’t want me