Elucidating Questions

I don’t know why I was worrying about someone else

I have enough problems with no answer

Someone to help me answer them?

Someone?

Without being shut out

Relying on people is stupid

We really need to stop doing that

People say things and what they mean is

It would be nice if that happened

Not that it’s going to

Oh and I look the fool again

It’ll be fine

Relying on tomorrow

How foolish could I be?

It’s all just random

Nothing that is said is true

He comes in like a wrecking ball

In that exact dramatic way

I’m going to sleep all weekend because it’s cheaper than being awake

Don’t ever ask me to count on anything again

You’ve asked me enough times

I’m perturbed by all of this

Stop leaking into the conversation this isn’t about you

This is about me feeling let down again

But I’ll never say it out loud

I never say it out loud

I’ve been let down

And now I’m fucked as usual

Some hell to go through

On top of hell

If you’d never started smoking then we wouldn’t have to go through withdrawals from it

Just saying

One more thing to try to keep me sane

One more thing I’ll go insane without

I’m sure it must be so hard to have the love of your life with you at all times

Again, stop leaking in, this isn’t about you

Though maybe it is, you let me down today too

In the same way every day is a let down because of you

If I could go back to that dream and never wake up

Sleep is all that rescues me from this world

Yet it taunts me