Elucidating Questions

Crazy?

Yeah I’m crazy

But I’m also gentle and loving and people purposely miss that for their ick of the unexpected

All my life experiences culminated to create

This wreckage

Clouds but no rain

How apt

Though I’d rather the literal rain than the figurative

I don’t know what I am

If someone could tell me plainly maybe I’d know

Someone who can’t reach whatever I’m reaching for?

One dream seen

One to drop in the waves

Is it really such a small thing?

Too small to become anything?

When right in front of me it seemed like it was so great

Feathered not flighted

All these wings could carry never allowed for any lift off

Somewhere in my heart I resent you

Resent is a strong word I don’t like to use

But part of me knows what kind of person you are just from

From the nothing

Because something here has to be good enough

And you just you just grow old

Without paying me your gaze

And you’re great

But how we treat the least is the mirror of our souls

Not how we treat people who paid to see us

It would seem I’m the least

Was it easier before?

Maybe because you were living

Why can’t my mind just let you

Why can’t I just let people erase me?

Stars are all I have and it’s cloudy

I have so many unsaid things

There are so many things

I’ve held my tongue

Together forever apart

I dream of you

It’s not fair, but I do

And then I miss you in the light

A you who doesn’t even exist

I wish I could say I was glad to have met you

Could I carry it?

Who knows

Would it make a difference?

A drop of good in the sea of terrible

How do I say goodbye?

How do I abandon you like the others?

It should be so easy

A year again

We’re in the same places as always

Here’s the song I ordered last Thursday

Turning today’s tears into tomorrow’s strength

It turns out this line is in my soul now

If only I could dispose of this feeling

My one thing for me

In the whole world

Another day has come to an end that I didn’t find it

Another day to convince myself to see through to tomorrow

On the infinitesimal chance it will be different than all the others