Elucidating Questions

Something

My energy levels are so low today

It’s like I didn’t sleep at all

I don’t know what world I was supposed to see

Today instead I’m making things

Some yarn

Thank god

It’s so hard to have nothing to do

Games become stale so quick

Reputation bores me

And so many games have a formula

And then I figure it out and get bored

And I can’t just spend endless money on games

Tried that

Debt

I encountered debt

There’s only so much I can take before something I can’t foresee happens

That is a certain Cat makes an appearance and blows up our lives

I was good yesterday, I felt him roiling

Leaking into my thoughts

And said, no more, I’ll come back another day

That was good

They don’t know how adult I was not blowing up and charging out of there

How much power it took

Literally like wrangling an angry cat there is a reason for his name

A protective reflex?

A second face?

Another thing I’ll never know

We have this strange love

Like our self love was put behind a glass wall

And we sit on either side ever turning

A glass coin

Something the Joker turns in his fingers as he thinks

Please don’t leave me here

I want to go to a place where he can rest and I

I am safe

The Bunny creeps in

That child me

Large eyes and big ears

Hearing everything but having no power to do anything about it

そう言う人生だよ

パタパタ

It’s like Nothing is trying so hard to get to me

I’m just fighting it off with everything I have

自分の為に生きてる

けど誰も認めてくらないよ。

I just want to maintain my existence

I’m trying so hard to

There are people on my side but they’re all so far away

Everyone is so far away from me

Do they even notice me sinking?

Just get up and go

Go damn it