Elucidating Questions

In my defense, I was left unsupervised

Yeah I was left unsupervised for 7 years

Devices and things

It’s so hard when no one seems to really grasp it

It makes me want people to experience it

Such an awful thing

To be unheard so completely

It always feels like they’re minimising it

Why doesn’t someone just admit this is an impossible situation?

Ployed me awake today, you did

Woke me up too early

Had me talk to the landlord’s girlfriend for a bit

She’s so nice

And he’s so closed off and brusk

I want to get to know her but feel like he wants to keep me several arms’ length away

I feel blocked off from it

Someone manifest me a receptionist job

I have tried so hard

I think back to those nights I would cry

Feeling so alone

I didn’t know the meaning

It’s amazing that someone surrounded by people can feel lonely

When they have no idea the depths

You get used to the pressure

But it still seeps into my bones

I was human long ago

Now I’m a wild thing

With my own language

呪を越える

How do I do it though?

You’ll never tell me, will you?

I haven’t spoken at length with anyone and been a participant in the conversation

Probably since the last time I spoke to my landlord’s girlfriend about a month ago

I feel so trapped here

I want so desperately to get out of this hell