Elucidating Questions

Should I bother to stay alive for it?

Hummingbird

So, yes?

It’s always yes

It’s never time

But it’s always yes

Dragging me through life

What stupid reason should I have today to live, yet prolonging my suffering?

Yeah I’m sure there’s some revelation that I really have to hear

I wish there was more of me left

But I dreamed

And I whispered in his ear Thank you, I love you so much, I’m sorry

And if it’s not real?

So what I’ll just conjure up another dream of a different scenario and that will carry me to the next

Waking isn’t for NPCs

No, ceasing to exist unless doing a job is what NPCs do

And yes this will be the first thing I’ve had to eat in 30 hours

Ah well

Again eating is for people who aren’t NPCs

A side character, and a bad one at that

I wish I had more options than die or prolong my hell

I fantasized about being kicked out of my house and just going

Like maybe being homeless would be a better life than this after all

At least I’d die sooner

I wonder how many people walk this road?

I snicker

Once again bringing to mind lyrics from a person who couldn’t possibly understand lonely

There is only me

And I can’t stand me

Drop me an answer other than

Yes

What for? Why?