Elucidating Questions

Receding Sun

Bat in the sky

I keep having daymares where I’m about to lose my house

What would it be like to live without the constant fear of not having enough when it counts?

I’m so good at financial gymnastics at this point I should get a medal

Never enough

Pain and discomfort

What am I maintaining?

I don’t know why I’m fighting so hard for all of this

Earlier you said look around ’round

And I said I don’t want to, it’s awful

Can’t even maintain the chaos

I wish I had a cure

I’ve been dealing with no options for so long

Maybe it’s nothing more than some future person’s inspiration for something else

Don’t tell me it’s okay

How can so much work mean so little?

I don’t know how to let go

Of anything

Somewhere in the past there’s still a me who believes in this

It does go on and on and on, but it doesn’t matter if it’s not being read

Tape it to his face

Yeah, that wouldn’t help

Because then I’d have to know where his face is and have permission to tape it

Frantically jumping up and down has not worked

Yeah, let’s go there

Somewhere

Me and my spirits

If you’d just leave me to them I’d be fine enough

I wish I could just leave

I’m bad for everyone

I wish I was free

You stupid fucking boy

Look at me

From The Cat

Don’t mind him he’s feeling rejected

I’m feeling rejected

But I’m well behaved

And trust me this is well behaved

I wish I was someone

I wish that someone had planted their feet before we were upended

Hey brother

Yeah I don’t want to go down an endless road all alone

I don’t want to believe in love when it’s not for me

You ask a lot of me, you know

You do

I was already trying my hardest when you dropped me to my knees and demanded ten times more

Why do I feel alive when I remember to breathe finally?

Why do I feel real