Elucidating Questions

I still don’t know why they told me that

We don’t live there anymore

It was so clear

And then it was about him

And I don’t know why

Why did you feel the need to inform me about him?

I thought they were all as aware as me

These things I know

I can’t think of a reason

I can’t understand why I needed to know that

And I can’t prove it

Maddening

You all seem to push me towards him

Why did I need to know that?

Here’s me not trying to stalk someone and they powers that be are like

Here’s some information

So much that I never really know what any of it means until it reaches me

These mysteries

I don’t know why I thought it would be easier to figure them out together

In the end I’m stuck here trying to figure them out anyways despite any effort on my part

Beauty and the Beast where the beauty never pays the beast any mind because beasts are ugly

I want to call him a coward

But there’s nothing I could really bring

Being nothing

A person isn’t a coward for ignoring a wrapper on the side of the street

I don’t know why you continue this

This telling me things

I’m not even crazy right now I’m just depressed as fuck

I wish you’d leave me be

Let me forget about him until I want to think about him again

If only he could see it

I’d tell him I don’t understand it

I’d tell him I don’t know why

Maybe we were supposed to meet

I don’t know

I still don’t know