Elucidating Questions

Was today typical?

Typical

Pulling myself from bed

Going out for a morning smoke

Dressed, protein shake drunk, out the door for work

But no

No it was there

Like an entire person holding on to me

The weight of my body being far worse than usual

Went through the day as if everything was normal

Did

But like a spectre

The weight of my limbs

The way the world starts spinning if I turn my head too much

Headache come and gone

No, seriously, haven’t had a drink in well over a week, no explanation

Body

Today was shorter than usual

Which is good, because I’m barely here

Do I remember the last 4 hours?

No

Customers were tame today

That was nice

My eyes are the colour people seldom comment on

Because I didn’t have the energy today

If you knew me you’d notice

Heh

Quiet

Today, so far

Besides my job backing out of an agreement (that had a doctor’s note) suddenly because Corporation

It looks like the Sun might come out

The unJuly-like clouds, welcome

The rain, a memory of a different time

It was beautiful

No, not typical

But, yes, typical

I will go home alone

Finish up my crochet project

I’ll dive into the night again

Saturn as soon as you appeared the clouds did too

It’s a conspiracy

I don’t know how I’m going to keep going

This weight

It’s so much more than I could have imagined