Elucidating Questions

Finally, sirens

Screaming into the night

Bless the rain

May it fall and drench everything

Wouldn’t that be lovely?

If I kiss the rain can it be for you instead?

You’re pretty

Do your best

And sparkle into being

It would be true for both

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Oh, please fall

Fall autocorrected to call

Silly phone

No one’s calling

Can you please give me the power to go into tomorrow?

I somehow appeared today

Still can’t manage to take care of myself

Rent money dwindling

Fuck

I want to show the world a me that can function tomorrow

Maybe I should tell myself to do my best

But it’s what I’ve been doing and it’s not enough

Never enough

Why did I just hear a crow?

Go back to sleep crow

Little by little

It’s become too much to bear

Bear

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No it’s right

Can never be too sure

People keep telling me I’m the one seeing things wrong

And the emptiness that this silence has created

It’s hard to trust myself

It’s just an echo chamber here

Of me and me

As soon as something happens I doubt I saw what I saw

But what am I to do?

Throw myself in the general direction of

Someone who is essentially no one

It’s just cultivated emotions

They prey on them like vampires

Forever trying to create a bond that is simply a line of energy straight from their herd to them

Manufactured

An imagined connection

When none actually exists

What do you want me to do?

If you ever give me the chance to be

In his gaze

I’ll get right on it

Until then

You’re going to have to figure it out on your own

It’s just another day gone by

In solitary

Doing my best all this time hasn’t changed that